Just another one of those times where I'm in a really crappy mood, depressed and on the edge. Why, you ask? Several things came to my realization on Saturday night. One, I have no life outside of school and work. Which leads to two, no one really seem to want to hang out or just get to know me. This one is the case because everyone I know has been invited to any sort of gatherings for halloween coming up this saturday. Guess who didn't get an invite or a call about what I am up to for that night? From the looks of it, I'm staying home alone. I rest my case.

And thirdly, if these things have came to my attention; then what is my purpose in my life? Am I just another one of those anonymous people that just happen to be freaking smart, and will do whatever anyone asks them to do, then get kicked in the behind in return or just nothing at all? I have talked to two people about this; I am young and there is still a lot for me in the future that will show me the answer. Another person stated that I have to connect with my inner self and God more to find these answers. I have been told by many that I am doing well and I have a lot going for me in the future with the things I'm doing now. My thoughts in my head in response to that would be; even if I am unhappy with myself and about my life?

I'm just glad and grateful, very grateful for the three people that are in my life and made positive impacts at the moment. They even take the effort and time to listen to my rants, check how I am doing from time to time, and have long, deep, meaningful conversations. Is that not fair at all for me to ask for in a friend? It appears so with the people I am around with everyday.